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Post by Marie Rose Massone on Apr 30, 2012 12:55:25 GMT -5
marie massone¡¡ "insert a line suited to your character here" Credit for this must go to (( Aurora !! from Caution for creating the template. Colours can be changed, but do not remove this credit or she will be very upset with you..
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Post by Marie Rose Massone on Apr 30, 2012 13:02:48 GMT -5
 « Journal Entry [One] »Monday, April 30th, 2012 I found out I was pregnant last night. Again.
Honestly? The thought of what would happen to me if Sterling left me ran through my mind, but only for a few minutes. Then, I realized how stupid I was to think that Sterling would leave me because I was pregnant.
Sterling loves kids. And when I say love, I mean he would probably let a kid do anything to him aside from doing anything permanent to his hair (he is very protective of his beautiful curls, and I would be if I was in his position). I wonder sometimes if my dreams will turn out true and this baby growing inside of me will be Hope Anastasia, who came to speak to me and reassures me all the time that things will work out between Sterling and I. I know it's cliche, but I've loved him since I first saw him in the band room in middle school. He looked at me like I was actually a person-- that was the first time I felt like me again since my mom had died.
If this really is Hope growing inside me, I know she will have her father wrapped around her tiny fingers from the moment she enters the world. Calling Sterling a father is a weird experience, but a good kind of weird. I mean, when you first become serious with someone, you always think "Oh, he'll be a great dad" but you never expect it to come as quickly as it has for me. I love Sterling with all my heart and soul and I know he will love his child, no matter the sex.
Marshal is the best friend I had in Sterling before we started dating. I can tell him everything. He's helped me through so many problems and I've only known him a few weeks. I feel like I can trust him with my life, and it's nice to have someone other than Sterling to lean on. Caedyn is so sweet as well. I know they will go far in their relationship, and they will be great uncles to my baby.
The next thing on my to-do list is to find a friend who is a girl and knows what it's like to be around so much testosterone. I feel bad when Sterling wants to help by letting me talk to him, but there's some things that you can't comfortably say to your boyfriend. For instance, this prospect of bra shopping and having a huge chest to deal with-- I'm tiny. This will be hard. Sterling and the boys don't understand because these rapid physical changes won't be happening to them, so that's why I need some estrogen to be around once in a while.
In the end, I know things will work out. Now to get through the next few months of all these changes...
Day 28 of my first full pregnancy.
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Post by Marie Rose Massone on May 12, 2012 12:38:56 GMT -5
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